assignment 8- Ezekiel

Fears: the vastness of space, not being good enough to succeed, not being liked.

Annoyances: people who refuse to be confrontational.

Accomplishments: founding the HCHS apple juice club.

Confusions: emotions

Sorrows: i feel as though i have already failed to live up to my potential.

Dreams: i don't even know

Idiosyncrasies: very often at night my brain just starts running very very very fast and it is hard to make it slow down, i don't really like music

Risks:im not entirely sure

Beloved possessions: does a dog count as a possession

Problems: understanding myself well enough to make myself do what i want to do, organization, procrastination, knowing what my problems are, dealing with emotions.

Expansion: idiosyncrasies

Ever since I was little at night if I wasn't really doing anything my brain just starts jumping from topic to topic extremely quickly and thinking lots of thoughts. Even as i am writing this my brain is trying to get me to crawl inside the rolled up rug on the floor. And oftentimes it is hard for me to keep up and figure out how I got from topic to topic or if I am having a conversation often I can't remember what was being discussed, this is always happening to some degree, however it is greatly exacerbated at night which of course makes it much harder to sleep and so i just create many different realities to keep myself entertained while i am unable to sleep. All of the ways that I have to deal with it need my full attention and often involve some form of technology, which my parents are fairly restrictive about or human interaction which is not easily attainable late at night and so I am often unable to do anything productive even if I am trying my hardest. I have recently discovered that when this starts to happen i can listen to music and  it will mostly stop and I can be somewhat productive. The only problem with this is that I don't particularly enjoy music, it's not bad. I just don't really find that it is something that I love listening to. Which further complicates the matter of keeping my brain quiet when I want to do something.